Have you ever thought about having an abortion? Have you ever had an abortion? What was the main reason you wanted an abortion? How did you feel after having an abortion? In essence, many women had more than one abortion taking the life of another human being. Many may say, “the baby wasn’t developed 100%” and they don’t consider it being called murder. In God’s eyes it’s consider murder because there is a life growing inside of you. Those who had abortion tends to take someone life for their own personal gain and that’s very disappointing.
However, abortions are concealment for our own sins and actions. Many abortions were given for adultery relationships, being sexual intimate out of wedlock, mis-using your body for profit gain on the streets, being married but not ready for kids, and possible being a rape victim. All of these examples are selfish and self-center acts besides being rape. Let’s elaborate on being a rape victim and becoming pregnant from the results of it. Rape is a crime and I’m sincere, sympathetic, and apologetic to any woman who had to encounter such offense of being rape. God gives life and he doesn’t take life, even if you were raped a sin was committed but God bless you with a life inside of you. You may hate or still have bitterness towards that person but why killed the child? The Lord says, “But as for you, you meant evil against me; but God meant it for good, in order to bring it about as it is this day.” The Lord continues to say, “for I know the thoughts that I think towards you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. That child you murder had a God given purpose on him/her life that was sent by God and didn’t get a chance to fulfill him/her purpose.
Nevertheless, I would like to share my own testimony regarding this subject. When I was about 20 years old, I met this great guy in college, charming, handsome, kind-heart, and well-dressed. We ended up dating and started a relationship that lasted over 5 years. One day I notice while working out I had pink stretch marks on my stomach and that evening I went home and told him about the marks and he mention, “You’re pregnant.” I said, No! We have always used protection during intercourse, well he mention one day I was drunk and he decided not to use protection and I became pregnant. Wow! During that time I was 23 years old and I didn’t want to have a baby nor did I want to get married either. I remember telling him I wanted an abortion because I love my freedom and not ready for another responsibility. Whereas, I schedule appointment for an abortion within two weeks after visiting my doctors to determine how many weeks I were during that time. I believe I was about 10 weeks and I knew in the state of TN in order to get an abortion it’s up to 12 weeks. I have heard several rumors about abortion and how you’re not asleep during the procedure and no pain pills are given either. Anyway, the day of the abortion we both woke up and he jump out the bed to take a shower, whereas I still lay in bed but I couldn’t feel or move my limbs. I thought maybe I’m just dreaming this is not happening to me, so I decided to move my toes and I couldn’t move it. I scream, “Help me”. He ran into the room and asked, “what’s wrong”, I stated, “I can’t move my limbs at all”. He took a needle and pokes it into my leg and I couldn’t feel it. I started crying and said, “I’m paralyzed”. He dressed me and we headed to the hospital which I was terrified because what could have cause this to happen. As we enter into the hospital he explained to them what’s going on and immediately they admit me into a room and began to take blood samples to process several tests. As hours went by the doctor enter the room and mention, “they are still process several tests and don’t know how I became paralyzed all of a sudden. As night fell, I knew I missed my abortion appointment. Wow! I said under my breath, “I’m going to have this baby because I’m not going to Arkansas to get an abortion, plus I don’t like pain. The next day I woke up feeling uneasy and uncomfortable, so I decided to move my body up in the bed and didn’t realize that I just moved my limbs. Wow! I can move my limbs…and I started crying telling him to wake up I can move my limbs again. He notifies the nurse and they witness me moving again and were in shocked but excited.
In the meantime, the doctors wanted to read the monitors to find out what happened but the monitor were blank. Later that day I was release from the hospital headed home and I said to him, “I guess it was meant for me to have this child”. As months passed I still were having morning/evening sickness and couldn’t hold any food in my stomach. I didn’t want to go back to the hospital so I asked this elderly woman that I worked with and she suggested I eat tacos which will settled my stomach. I bought some tacos and it actually settled my stomach and I felt better. Now, I’m about seven months into my pregnancy and one day I couldn’t feel my baby moving in my stomach and I begin to panic. I was currently working during that time and told my manager what was going on and she suggested I go to the hospital and called my man friend to pick me up. As we arrived, he told them what had occurred while I was working, they admit me in a room, start taking my blood pressure and the nurse jumped up and scream as if she saw a spider. I begin to get nervous and asked, “what’s wrong with my pressure” and she called for a doctor and told him what was going on, he looked at me and said, “your blood pressure is 270/170 and we are surprised you’re not dead. I couldn’t believe it because I been taking my blood pressure medicine as instructed from my doctors which she didn’t know that my body changed and the medicine no longer decrease my pressure but increase my pressure. Wow! More doctors enter my room and immediately advised a cesarean right away. They advised my unborn child father to call my family and have them to arrived at the hospital immediately because this is serious. As my family arrived, I didn’t know what to think because the doctors wouldn’t even share with me what was going on with my body. I just saw the doctor talking to my parents and my mom started crying and shaking, one of my sisters was in tears and the other one was at work who had a panic attack because they told her what was going on while she was still at work and we had to wait on her to arrive.
Therefore, when my sister arrived she said, “I don’t want you to die giving birth to your child”, I said, what? I’m going to be okay and they didn’t mention about me dying on the table giving birth to my child but my sister mention the doctors told the entire family that I wasn’t going to make it and that’s why an emergency cesarean was needed. The doctors advised my family there is a 90% chance I will die giving birth to my child. I cried and couldn’t stop crying because I didn’t want to die giving birth to my first child. Wow! I remember my sister mentioning something about the Lord and I cried out and said, Lord, I don’t want to die. The doctors brought me documents to sign regarding if I died who I wanted to care for my child and there were three lines and I place the child father on line one, line two my mother, line three my sisters. I kept weeping until I couldn’t weep anymore and the time has arrived for the procedure to take place and everyone was saying their good-bye’s as if this was the last time they were going to see me alive. When I woke up from the surgery I had a picture by my bed of the baby and my sister and man friend were there sleeping and I yelled out and said, “wake up I want to see my baby”. They jumped up and screamed because they couldn’t believe I woke up finally which I didn’t know I were in a coma for two days just sleeping. Everyone thought I was going to die but, God! He had a plan for my son & I and the enemy wanted me dead. What the enemy meant for bad, God turn everything around for my good. I gave birth to a beautiful and handsome boy that weight 3 lbs and 7 oz, he had to stay in the hospital until he reach 5 lbs and I had to stay until they find out what’s wrong with my heart and why my breathing was abnormal.
In conclusion, I wasn’t’ saved at 20 years old but I remember my parents said I was baptized at the age of 10 years old, but I didn’t know the significance of being saved or baptized, so I consider myself being a sinner because I don’t remember confessing Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. Anyway, this message was not to condemned anyone but to set you free of being torment and to stop anyone who is about to abort their child. God has forgiven you and please forgive yourself and move on with your life. Don’t allow people to bring up your past and remind you about the abortion but let them know Jesus have forgiven your sins and has been washed with the blood of Jesus Christ. I thank Jesus that I didn’t die or abort my own child because he has a destiny and purpose on his life. Just imagine if I were dead you wouldn’t be able to view this site or received encouraging messages every morning from me. The Lord has wonderful, magnificent, and amazing plans for my son & I and, I’m very grateful to be alive today to tell everyone about the goodness of Jesus Christ. I gave my life to Christ at the age of 26 years old and I haven’t been the same since I allow him to become Lord over my life. Jesus Christ is my Lord and I will forever glorify Him. Women before you abort that child please think first because God has a purpose and plan for that child and you even if you’re a rape victim that child was destined to fulfill him/her purpose. Once you forgive the person who committed bodily harm towards you that’s when the healing will take place in your heart and, you will begin to love that child regardless. Don’t allow the enemy to whisper lies in your ear about your unborn child and talk you into having an abortion. *Remember God gives life and he doesn’t take life but the enemy comes to steal, kill, and destroy.
As always my beautiful sisters in Christ, Jesus loves you and so do I.
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